I just wanna go at my own pace

What do you want from me

I don't got to much to give no more

Sometimes I wish that I'd just hit the floor

Tired of putting on a fake smile

Just so I can fake a laugh for a little while

I been caught up with these messages

That I've forgot to message friends

Loved ones

And even then it all might end

Fuck this man

I just wanna go back in time when everything was fine

And when it felt like everything was on my side of the line

The ones that know me the most don't know me at all

I really should give 'em all a call

But when I do my anxiety grows bigger than Kamala Khan

I feel like I'm bothering them even though they call me all the time

I hope they all hear this rhyme

I don't want to be a burden but I feel like I am all the time

Don't want to drag you down

But I guess it's a side effect of just being around

I don't wanna look at my own face

I never want to see it again

If life's a race then I

Give up I'll go at my own pace

Go at my own pace

My own pace

Some nights I just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling

Hoping and praying for some relief and some healing

But it never comes and my mind starts racing again

Thats what got me in this place

I'm hated again

On the outside I look happy and cheerful

But on the inside I feel crappy and tearful

I miss when I was equally happy inside and out

But last year happened and all that has died out

Bleeding on every line

I can't escape what came into my mind

I don't want to die

I just want to feel alive

Never been suicidal

Come to think of it thoughts like that have never been very vital

I used to hide all of my pain but now I'm letting it all go

And I promise that none of it is just for a show

This is a

I don't wanna look at my own face

I never want to see it again

If life's a race then I

Give up I'll go at my own pace

Go at my own pace

My own pace