Pacing back and forth

I live inside my head

And if home is where the heart is

Then I ain't never need a bed

If you ever catch me sleeping

Then you know i'm fucking dead

Cause the panic got me wheezing

Demons sitting on my chest

Well I never saw myself tripping over dumb shit

But my feet are made of concrete

And I haven't gotten up yet

And my heart is hardly beating

Pull it out so you can touch it

And you try so hard to sew it

But you know you never loved it

I want to find some meaning while i wander this bizzare place

I want to stop feeling like a coin in a guitar case

I'm so sick of dreaming

Why I never fucking sleep

I wanna end it all now

But I know that it ain't cheap

I need my mother's love

I need the map out this darkness

Got no working flashlight

Just some voices and my garments

I ponder in my silence

But the thoughts they are not harmless

Got no want to talk, cause they bugging like my carcass

I need to tell my Mama that I love her more often

Cause I know I'll be regretting when she sleeps there in a coffin

But there is no fucking logic when i'm dancing with my darkness

And the demons will keep talking

And there is no fucking stopping

My rage gets the best of me

Why the fuck you testing me

I'll kill my father

He expects no less from me

Chest and feet aching from running through the panic

Is this destiny

The Devil been expecting me

I pull up to the family functions

Closest thing to peace

I can finally just kick back and maybe get some sleep

My muscles are so tired, I've been swimming up the creek

I'm moving and i'm moving but they dipped my legs in concrete

A zombie walking amongst the living

I beg on my knees just to be forgiven

I ran out of gas but I still be driven

I was raised right taught right I'll never give in